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SEXUAL ABUSE
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By: Cassper From: Pow Wow chat
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What does it mean to you,
To me it's horrible memmories from my past,
Some stupid bastard broke my heart,
It's the feeling of dirt and unclenliness
It's the fear of crying and nothing less.
You ruined my life that i'll never forget
The day i met you i fully regret.
I tell my friends i still trust guys
When deep down inside i know it's a lie!
It's the sleepless nights and images of you
It's the fear of men and intamacy
And it's all because of you.
It's the fear of once again meeting you,
As i don't know what i'm likely to do!
I've never had a hate so deep and true
As i have towards you
I hope one day that you will pay
And the shadow of my past will fold away.


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LOVE LOST
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By: Anthony from the Poet
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There is no greater pain
Than a love lost
So why not stay away
At all cost

If I never love you
I never will hurt
When you change your mind
And drop me in the dirt

I'll never love again
Yea, that's what I'll do
And never feel pain
Or suffering too.

When out in public,
I'll make my posture be cold
And I'll keep it that way
Until I grow old

And then I will say
With a pipe in my hand
I've lived a good life
For when I was a man

I never let a woman
Close to my heart
So that one fine day
She would simply just part

Pay heed to my words
And never feel blue
For as sure as I'm me
These words are true

I speak from experience
What I've seen and felt
And compiled and compared
The cards I was dealt

It is no lie
I would rather be hated
For love I have found
Is much overrated

If you have just fallen in love
I am warning
You'd better quit now
Or for sure you'll be mourning

I have seen love cause
A strong man to cry
With such unrelenting pain
This man want to die

Maybe then he'll be spared
From his suffering and grief
And in his dark grave
Finally find some relief

Love conquers all
Some fool would say
Till it frabs his heart
And then takes it away

And if it returns
Which won't be often
the heart it brings back
Will be fit for a coffin

And love will cause wars
I'm sure you have heard
This kind of love
Is at best absurd

When good men will die
For a cause that's not just
For the satisfaction
Of a few peoples lust

No, love is not welcome
Inside my life
I'd rather be shot
Or cut with a knife

These wounds will heal
They have in the past
But the pain in love
Will forever last.

FOOLISH MAN
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By: Anthony from the Poet
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I thought you were strong
You could outsmart many
I know I was wrong
you can't impress any

I saw your weakness
and failure as well
As I got to know you
It was easier to tell

You couldn't be stronger
Than the drink in your hand
It ruined your life
You foolish man.

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THE COAT
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By: SunBurst from the Poet
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I patched my coat with sunlight,
It lasted for a day.
I patched my coat with moonlight,
But the lining came away.
I patched my coat with lightning,
And it flew off in the storm.
I patched my coat with darkness:
That coat has kept me warm.

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A FRUIT CALLED PASSION
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By: Anonymous friend of the Poet
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The morning began with the setting sun.
Around the fire we gathered one by one.
For breakfast there was fruit of all fashion.
You as I chose the one called passion.
With sounds of songs endlessly singing.
We explore each new feeling.
I watched you delight in the many textured layers of life.
While I talked to a soldier who had no wife.
Across fields of fallen crosses we were sojouring.
Till natures voices summoned, babbling and yearning.
From the shores of a stream both narrow and wide.
To an Isle of splendor our passion did glide.
In a sea of voices we searched for that spot.
To share natures treasure we had brought.
We talked without speaking.
Only to find that we are both listening.
We share drinks of liquid fire.
Building the flames of passion higher.
Walking for hours or simply eternity.
We find out way back to friends and insanity.
With a friend who is none.
You depart for sleep leaving just one.
With embers slowly dying.
Passion fades and I am crying.
With the comming of a second sunrise.
I look within and summarize.
Momments of passion forever passing.
Only memory and desire keep thim lasting.
Gone with the dark are the passions of the mind.
And as I sleep, I wonder, is the passion real,
Or just a fruit of some kind.

By: Rebecca
From Pow Wow chat
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A few words (I leave you now)
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If I didn't live up to your expectations I'm sorry
I would have liked to have been everything you wanted of me and more
If I straight out disappointed you I'm heartbroken
I always wanted to be the perfect girl
I know I sometimes managed to be deceptive
But I really wouldn't go so far to say I lied to you
I always liked to think of myself as an advocate of truth
But too many smiles you saw were fake
So maybe I didn't do everything right
Maybe I screwed up more than you and your whole cult
Are you going to condemn me forever
Are you going to make me the epitome of hell
Cos if that's what you want of me
If you want me to be your "should not" poster girl
If you want to make me your donkey to pin
What difference should it make to me now
I leave you now, and I've many words to say
But I never was a vocalist so I don't know how to say them
I never was a public speaker and no one listened to me anyway
So I leave you to interpret the few words I have as you will
Since that's all you've done all along anyway
Not only did you not listen, but you never even heard me
You listened to your country music bull and asked if it was raining
But the water was always just my tears
I know I lived up to some of your expectations
You wouldn't have paid my hospital bills otherwise
But still it's not like you wanted to
You said no, in jest, but you are jest so what difference does it make
But you know, there was one expectation you always had
That I would never grow up to be like me, or like my sister
And that's the one thing I always was
I'm really sorry to have disappointed you
All I wanted to do my whole life was suck up to your believes
So you would like me for who I am
Or who you thought I was
Or who you wanted me to be
One out of three would have been great
And if they were all one in the same we all could have rejoiced
But you liked me, loved me, wanted me for none
You hated me, I had no sense to hate you back
I loved everyone with a plastic smile on my face
That you taught me to mold before I could even talk
And if I could talk would I have said no
I probably would have just said how great you were
I guess times like these are supposed to be
Full of disappointment and grief and fear
I guess there's not point in denying the proper course of nature
That's one thing you always taught me
Do you think nature's a great force in the world
You do, well so do I
You think it's probably the greatest, oh, yesterday it was God
But today's today so let's push nature on
I'll give you disappointment
I'll give you grief and I'll give you fear
Watch me close, remember I'm deceptive
I'll present my case and you'll probably end up going with me when I leave
So let's see, where shall I start in the story of my, oh sorry, I mean your life
Well I cheated on a spelling test in the first grade
And I got caught and never told you
But at least I never did it again, at least not that I remember
I did a lot more on feelingless date
With feelingless guys than I ever told you
I always used up as much of my curfew as I could
And just told you sketchy details, about the movie we "watched"
And now for the biggest disappointment of all
Guess what mommy love, it turns out I'm bisexual, gay you know
Oh you don't, you don't know, here, I'll put it in your kind of terms
Hey mommy, meet your daughter the faggot, the queer
Now do you know why I came home from school some days
With a tear down the side of my shirt
And blood dripping off my lips
You ignored me because you wanted to, and you were afraid of change anyway
What mom, does that bother you, are you shocked
Does it piss you off and make you want to scream
Or do you just want to go throw up
You can use my bathroom, I finally got around to cleaning it
So what if I didn't live up to every damn expectation you had of me
So what if I disappointed you more than Hitler did
Which doesn't say much, considering your believes
Do you really think I'm sorry, do you really think I'm smiling
Look at me, all ye mother fuckers
Look at the face you see before you
Look at the bruises and the blood and the shame and the smile that is not there
Do you think I was really sorry
I've already let all my disappointment out on you
And I'm not faking anymore
You're gonna see what I'm gonna show you
And you're gonna feel what I throw at you
Don't look at me like I'm your incarnation
I had nothing to do with you
You had nothing to do with me
You just stood by and watched while I raised myself a disappointment, and another
So I'm not going to fool you anymore
I'm not going to fake a smile when I'm roasting inside
If I'm feeling hot, I'm gonna burn you
And I'm gonna burn you good, the heat is all yours anyway
You tell me it's okay now, I can go back
I can change where I screwed up
I can have a second chance and undo my mistakes
Yeah, well guess what
Fuck you and your expectations and your disappointments
And your mistakes that I took just fine
And your heat that you hid with the AC on too high
And your apologies and your plastic smiles
And your beliefs that I sucked up to but never really liked the taste
And your lies and your truths that you used interchangeably
And fuck you and your perfect daughter
Cos I'm not her, so why should I care anyway
So I'm leaving now, and I feel a lot better
I leave you now with these few words to interpret (as the drugs having too much effect)
I'm sure you won't rest in peace, but I will
Because I'm not a faker anymore
I'm not you anymore